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2023/05/21

TWD - I won't leaving you 3

 The weeks passed the same, the two of them take watches, and Merle's arm healed pretty well, it was not bandaged up anymore, but now people stared at it. It was not a nice view, but Merle doesn't give a shit, they can stare, nobody dared to say anything. After a couple of weeks, everyone learned not to piss off Dixon.

Some respected him, and his skills, while others don't liked him that much. Amelia was another story. She was much more approachable, less intimidating, but she was hot-headed, and her closeness with Merle don't help. She liked Martinez, and however odd it was, she liked Milton too. He was a little odd, a scientist, he was close to the Governor, but he was oke.

Merle teased her about it, but she just ignored it. She wanted to settle in, making more effort than back at the camp in Atlanta. In the beginning, it was not noticeable, but after a while, it started annoying Merle. She was always busy, or too tired, and spent her time in her room, or with that Milton kid, if she was not on watch. He was frustrated, Amelia was his friend, and recently the only person he can trust. Before she never minded his company. He scoffed, while kicking a pole in the street, and startled some people passing by. Great, now he acted like a stupid kid. He calmed down, and decided to wait for her in her room, and just simply aks her whats going on. 

He waited for her, and when Amelia opened her door, she not noticed him immediately, just after she closed the door, and turned around.

"Hey, I didn't know ya going to be here."

"Well, nowadays I need to sneak into yer room if I wanna talk with you. Ya avoiding me, or sometin'?" He looked right into her eyes, and Amelia was taken aback a little.

"Why I would avoiding ya?" 

"Dunno, that's why I'm 'ere. Ya always busy with that Milton kid."

"Oh, I thought ya don't going to notice it." She was nervous, but then she got excited, and an unpleasant feeling settled in Merle's stomach. She clapped her hand together. "I was really busy, but now it's done, so I can show ya."

"'m a little confused here, so ya not screwing around with that scientist?" 

"What? With Milton? No."

"Then what kept ya so busy?" He would be first dead before he admit, that he was a little relieved. In the past, it never bothered him when she stayed the night with some dudes, because it was never serious, and it never occurred to him that one day maybe it going to be more serious. And she going to spend less time with him and Daryl, but now that it was just the two of them, he don't wanted to lose her in any way.

"I show ya." She turned around, and went to the kitchen area, then came back, holding something in her hand, wrapped in a brown rag.  She sat down next to him, her eyes excited, and held it to him to take it. "C'mon, ya going to love it."

He eyed her for a moment, then took off the rag and he was silent. It was a prosthetic with leather straps. He traced his fingers on the cool metal, then on the straps.

"You don't say, but I know yer hand has been bothering you. So I started thinking, and came up with a couple of ideas. Milton helped me, he's good with stuff like this, but I did most of the work and the design. Wanna try it on?" He looked up at her, and just nodded.

"Yeah." She helped him put it on, tying the straps, and she grinned the whole time.

"And that's not even the best part." She reached to the knife holster on her waist and took out a bayonet, then attached it to the end of the prosthetic. "Ya can attach a knife on the end, so it becomes a weapon. Pretty cool. I chose a bayonet, I know ya like that type of weapon, but you can pick sometin' else."

"So ya were busy with this the whole time?"

"Yup." He holds his hand up at eye height, trying out how it feels. It was strange, cool on his skin, and it had a little weight. Amelia really took the time to plan this, just for him. "Yer quiet, if you don't like it..."

"Of course I like it! Damn, sugah', ya spent weeks working on this, are you?" She nodded, biting her lips, and playing with the dog tags on her neck. Nobody has done anything for Merle, nothing like this. "C'mere.

He pulled her closer and hugged her, and he was certain that Amelia smiled. He was careful with his new attachment still on. "Thank you."

"You're welcome. I can't wait when we can try it out in action." She pulled back, a grin on her face, and Merle smirked back. 

"I like yer thinking."

"'m sorry if ya felt I was avoiding you."

"Nah."

"Admit it, ya missed me." She teased him, and he just snorted, but smiled nonetheless. 

"I ain't missed ya."

"You were, ass." She said fondly, and he just rolled his eyes. She can believe what she wants. 

"What ya sayin', you wanna go to the gate, and try this thing out?"

"Hell yeah, let's go." She was relieved that Merle liked the prosthetic, in her opinion, it was really cool. But she was surprised about how Merle thought she avoiding him. He was a little cute, sitting on her couch like that, but it was nice to know he could miss her company. 

When they were at the gate, she waved to Matinez and Crowley.

"Yo, guys, open the gate for us."

"Why you two wanna go outside?" Martinez asked, and Merle showed off his new arm, a smirk on his face.

"I have a new toy, we wanna try it out." Both men looked at his arm with wide eyes, not quite believing what they saw. Crowley was the first who started grinning.

"Man, that's really a knife? Where do you get that thing?"

"Amelia made it. She's talented in many ways, right sugah'?" He was a little too smug, but he enjoyed teasing Martinez with his double-meaning words. He was too comfortable with Amelia, and Merle don't liked how he looked at her. 

"Oh, I have magic hands." She smirked, and played along with Merle's teasing. The look on Martinez's face was priceless. "No, but seriously, I made it. We wanna try it on the biters."

"You guys are crazy, but suits yourself." They opened the gate, and Amelia distracted the first walker, grabbing its neck. 

"C'mon, Dixon!" Merle lunged forward with the bayonet, and it went right into the walker's head. 

"Yeah, baby!" Merle was excited, and he killed the next one alone. Martinez and Crowley exchanged a glance with each other, then looked back at the duo. They enjoyed a little too much killing the walkers. Martinez liked Amelia, she was cool, but in moments like this, she was a little crazy. He hated the walkers too, but Dixon and Amelia made a sport about who killed the most. The idea alone that she made a weapon like that for Dixon was crazy, but it worked pretty well, he had to admit that, but now Dixon going to walk around with a knife on his hand.  

"Yer hand now literally a weapon. I'm a little jealous."

"We don't going to cut yer hand off." Merle snorted, then wrapped his good hand on her waist. Martinez frowned a little, he didn't like how close Dixon was to Amelia, even if she said they were not together. "You can have my hunting knife, ya know, the one you kept begging me to give it to ya."

"Really? Thanks!" She gave a kiss on his cheek, and Merle just smirked amused.

"Sometimes yer act like a six year old." He chuckled, and Amelia stuck her tongue out. 

"Ass. I think we had enough fun today, wanna head back?"

"Ya right."

"She's cute, I didn't see her this childish before." Crowley said, glancing at Martinez. "Dude, you always staring at her, why don't you make a move on her? Because of Dixon?"

"They not together."

"Then what? She seems the kind of woman who can handle a little flirting, I mean, she and Dixon always joking with stuff like that." Martinez scoffed.

"You heard Amelia, right? She curses and makes just as bad jokes as Dixon."

"And you still like her. I mean, apart from her taste, she seems cool." Their conversation ended, when the duo came back, blood splattered on their face and clothes from the walkers. Martinez waved toward her face.

"You have something on you. I think it's walker gut." He said ironically, and Amelia just shrugged her shoulder. 

"Yer almost as sexy, sugah', as you always after a hunt."

"Oh, yeah?" She had a sly smile on her face, throwing her hair back. It was Merle's specialty to make her feel sexy, even when she was bloody and dirty. "We weren't on a hunt since we came here. Can we go this week? I kinda miss it, but it going to be strange without Daryl."

"Sure." He nodded, while thinking about Daryl. They not often talked about his brother. His thoughts stopped when Martinez spoke. 

"You two wanna go outside hunting, when we have enough supply right now?"

"We always did, it's kinda good to be away from people for a while, but Merle's arm needed to heal."

"Now it's good as new." He hold his arm up, and Amelia just giggled, patting his shoulder. 

"C'mon, I need a shower." She waved goodbye to the boys, and they went this time to Merle's room. She had a few things there, but she asked for a shirt from him.

"Ya always stealin' my shirts."

"Because they are comfy." He just shook his head amused, but gave her a button-up shirt anyway. While Merle went to shower, Amelia curled up on the couch, and fell asleep. He rubbed his face, then put the prosthetic on the table while looking for some beer. 

"Hey, ya wanna..." Merle wanted to ask if she wanna drink a beer, but looking at her, he just smiled. He grabbed a beer, and then put a blanket over her. "Pussy, can't even stay awake."

He went to his bed, with his back against the headboard while drinking his beer. He was not tired, quite the opposite, so he let his mind wander, but his thoughts went back to Amelia and the prosthetic she made. He looked at his stump. In weeks, for the first time, it has not bothered him that much. She can't give his hand back, but she gave him a weapon. He can't wait to use it on their next hunt. 

-
They were both in a heightened spirit, away from the others in the forest hunting, just like how they planned it the other day. 

"Oh man, it's good to be outside. I hate sitting on my ass all day, even if we take watch and other things..."

"I knew what ya' mean sugah'." Merle was just as relieved to begin outside, no walls, no rules. The Governor was not too happy with them going out for no real reason, but didn't stop them either. I was strange without his brother, but he knew Daryl was not someone who could die easily. He was tough. He looked to the side when he felt Amelia's hand on his shoulder.

"You thinking about Daryl, are ya'?"

"Yeah. But he is tough, my brother."

"If he were here, he would say we bickering too much." Amelia chuckled, and Merle let out a deep laugh. They were both nostalgic and kept talking about Daryl, until they noticed a rabbit. Amelia smile widened, and with a clean shoot, the rabbit was dead. A few hours later she had two more on her shoulder, and Merle had a buck. 

It was late afternoon when they returned, Martinez and a woman, Sheila, standing guard today, their eyes wide as they opened the gate for the two hunters. 

"Your eyes will fall out, Martinez, if ya keep staring."

"You two weren't kidding about the hunting." Oh well, Merle enjoyed the look on his face, this Martinez guy was shocked, that was for sure, and Amelia just grinned.

"Yup." The duo kept walking, drawing quite a bit of attention to themselves. Merle was pleased that his strength was like back then when he still had his other hand too, and he can managed lifting the heavy buck on his shoulder and bringing it back to Woodbury. Amelia only helped him, when he lifted the animal up, but that was it. 

There was a quiet spot a little further away from the houses, where they often hung out just to smoke, or when they grew tired of being inside the house for too long. It was just like back in the camp, Merle brought two camping chairs here a few weeks ago, and it was their spot behind the houses, but it was Amelia's idea to turn this place into their after-hunt spot. Merle had also set up a long table, and Amelia loved that Dixon could do so many things, he was handy.

"You know, it was good to be out there, this Philip guy is too bossy to my taste. Who is he to tell us what he can do in our free time?"

Merle put the buck down on the ground, and he agreed with Amelia. Philip was too controlling and either of them liked this, but there was little what they can do about it. He gave them a place to stay, and Woodbury was a good place. 

"Yeah, we can't let our guard down in this town, even if we think it's safe. I trust no one, only ya and my brothe'." Merle's heavy southern accent was way more noticeable than Amelia's, but everyone in Georgia has a southern accent. She slowly grinned at Merle.

"The same goes for me too. I only trust you right now."

How strange, Merle thought, this woman was not his blood, and yet they trusted like they were. He had to admit, even if Amelia liked him how he was, he behaved way better when she was around. Maybe because she drew a line sooner on some things than Merle and he didn't wanted to piss her off. 

They started working on the animals, and prep them, they had enough for right now, but Amelia wanted something fresh, and Merle can't agree more. So it going to be bunny stew, and the buck meat will be preserved, dried meat is good for a long time, especially if they have to go outside Woodbury. It was almost dark when the stew was ready and the smells, oh god. Amelia was excited when Merle handed her a plate, and the two of them sat down and began to eat in silence, sometimes humming because it was much better than the canned food.

"I miss my brothers. I try not to think about them, but... sometimes I wonder if they are alive or not. There is always a chance, I mean... I'm alive too." Her voice was quiet, and Merle glanced at her. He knew her older brother, Caleb, they met a couple of times, he was a good lad and he can understand how Amelia felt. 

"I don't know sugah', but if any of yer siblings are alive I bet on Caleb. Maybe ya can find him, maybe not. Ya right, it's not good to dwell on the past but... I can't stop thinking about Daryl, so... I'm not the best person to say how ya can feel or not."

"I know, but thanks, for listening to me." She had a sad, but honest smile on her face, and Merle felt good about it. He was always lost when it came to comforting someone so it was a little win in his opinion.

"Anytime, Am."

They both needed a day like this, just the two of them, a little nostalgic but fun day. Everything else can wait until tomorrow.

2023/05/14

Hazel Dixon

"Get your guns out of my face." I said in an irritated, but calm voice. The man in front of me lowered his rifle, and nodded the others to do the same. 

"She's just a girl." Someone said, it was a woman with long, brown hair, a boy behind her back. This is just great, the quarry was full of people. A whole camp. I lowered my gun too, but didn't put it away yet. "You on your own?"

"Yeah. My old man and I used to camp here, the place has a lake, the forest is good for hunting so I thought of coming here. Guess it's not just my place any longer." 

"You can stay, if you want, I'm Shane Walsh. She is Lori." The guy with the rifle introduced himself, and the woman with the little boy. 

"Hazel." A put away my gun, and the boy came a little forward. 

"Hi, I'm Carl." I just nodded, and went after the others toward their camp. Soon more people come and introduce themself. The first was Dale, an older man with a hat, he seemed nice, then a young asian guy, Glenn, and a black man, named T-dog. I scoffed a little, what name is T-dog anyway? 

There was two blond girl, they were sisters, Andrea the older, and Amy the younger. She seemed to in my age, or close enough. She was who asked how old I am.

"Sixteen in this year. You?"

"Twenty-three. I thought you are older, carrying that gun and knives." She grinned, and I tapped my gun on my waist.

"It's a beauty, my dad gave it to me for my twelve birthday." For that, everyone went quiet. I looked around, raising my eyebrow. "What?"

"Your dad gave you a gun when you were twelve?" Lori asked, concern in her voice. 

"Well, it comes in handy nowadays, does it?" 

"You said you and your dad come here often to camp?" Dale asked while we all sat down around the campfire, the heat felt nice on my skin. A lifted my gaze from the fire toward Dale. 

"Yeah, we came here for hunting every now and then. We were separated when this shit happened, so I thought it was not a bad idea to come here, maybe run into my family. What about ya guys? Ya all came from Atlanta?"

"Most of us yes, or on the road when they bombed the city." Lori said, and I nodded. 

"I was in the forest, but I saw the bombing too. It scared away my game." I huffed, still annoyed with the memory. Some smiled at my statement, and my lip twitched upward a little too. 

"What about your mum?" Carl asked, and his mother hissed.

"Carl, it's rude to ask something like that."

"Nah, it's cool." I shrugged my shoulder. "My mom left me when I was born, my dad raised me. When I was older, I went to see her, but she had a husband and new kids, and says she doesn't want anything to do with me. My old man can be an asshole sometimes, but he has a soft spot for those he loves."

"So it was just the two of you?" Amy asked, and I smiled.

"My uncle helped my dad a lot, he's more like a brother to me." Amy leaned closer to Andrea, resting her head on her sister's shoulder, and I felt a pang of sadness. 

"I lost my dad too, he was a cop and get shot before this. So it's just my mum, me, and Sahne now." Carl must see the sadness on my face, and I hated to be this vulnerable. 

"My dad is alive, the toughest son of a bitch I know." Carl's smile faded a little, but I don't care. I needed the believe that my family is still alive. After that, everyone started talking about something else, and I left to do my tent. The others seemed nice, but I liked to be on my own, but still, having people to watch my back doesn't sound too bad. 

-

In the morning, I was up a little later than usual, maybe because I don't have to look behind my shoulders all the time for walkers. 

"Hey, you up? Wanna come with us to the lake? We doing laundry." Amy asked, nodding toward the other women in camp. I grimaced, patting my gun."

"Nah, I'm going hunting, see if I can catch something."

"All alone?" Lori asked, and I just smirked.

"Doing laundry it's not my thing, ladies." I laughed seeing their faces, and I went on my own, toward the forest. 

It was late afternoon when I came back, five squirrels on my shoulder, and three rabbits on the other. The others were around the fire, so I joined them, sitting down on a log which was a little further than the others. I started gutting and skinning the first rabbit.

"Well, she was not kidding, when she said she can hunt." Glenn said, and I looked up, a little smirk on my face.

"I was not bullshitting." I wiped the back of my hand on my jeans and keep continuing. The smell of grilled rabbit filled the air, and my stomach started to growl. "Man, I can't wait to eat something."

"We offered to you can eat some canned food, but you said you rather starve."

"It was worth the waiting, look at that, all fresh and tasty." Soon I was munching on my rabbit, the other two still roasting. I offered it to the others, Amy just grimaced, her loss, but Glenn and Dale have taken the opportunity to eat something that is not canned bean or god knows what else. 

"You know, there are another two hunters in the camp, they went hunting before you showed up." I looked up at Glenn curiously. 

"Yeah? Cool, it would be good to go hunting with someone else, not just myself."

"They are assholes. Two rednecks, always keeping their distance from us." My heart stopped for a moment when I looked at Shane. Could it be...?

"Oh yeah, you best keep away from them, the Dixons are assholes." T-Dog kept talking, but my mind was on his last words. Dixons... 

"You oke? You paled for a moment." Amy asked with a little concern, and I nodded. Jesus, Hazel, pull yourself together. 

"Yeah, I'm just tired, that's all. Good nigh'." I went into my tent, holding my hunting knife in my hand and tracing my finger on the monogram on the knife. H.D. Hazel Dixon. It has to be them. That night I fell asleep with my dad and uncle in my mind. 

-

Two more days went by, and I started to settle in the camp, but my eyes was always on the forest. 

"Hey, you are quieter than usual." It was Glenn, and I shrugged my shoulder.  

"I'm like be alone."

"Not always, you can be really loud, always telling some stories by the fire." I chuckled a little at Glenn's words. 

"Yeah, well, my dad never can shut up, guess I took after him a little." I wiped my hands on my jeans, it was already bloody, so who care. 

"You are different, I mean, you are close to Amy in age, but you're... tougher. You can hunt, you don't mind being dirty or bloody, like you were built for this new world."

"Maybe, maybe not. I just grow up like this, we were sometimes low on money, and well... my dad is not a saint. But we were there for each other, and maybe I don't grow up in some fancy house like Amy or Andrea, but I has a good childhood. And I can fend for myself, because my pa taught me how."

"I don't mean as an offense! It's cool, I mean, you are cool, Hazel." Glenn was sometimes so awkward and shy, but he was sweet, so I grinned, patting his shoulder.

"Take a breath, chinaman, I know what ya mean."

"I'm Korean, but you know this."

"Yup."

"You can be so annoying."

"I know." Glenn just shake his head, and I laughed. I loved messing with him, or with the others. Lori came over to me, so I looked at her waiting for what she wants.  

"You don't want to join the other kids? Jacqui and me teaching them."

"Sorry to disappoint, but I almost finished high school, 'm a little old for stuff like that, Lori." I said with an amused smile and Lori just sighed.

"I know, but you are always on your own, I'm just worried."

"I was on my own before, you don't need to worr..." We were interrupted by Shane.

"Great, the Dixons are back." He said sarcastically, and I needed to bit my lip before I say something I shouldn't. When I heard an all too familiar voice, I know it was him. He just get back, but he was already arguing with someone, I think with T-Dog.

My heart beat very fast and I closed my eyes for a moment, then open them and spun around. There it was, my dad and uncle, both of them carrying a deer on their own. 

"Dad!" I shouted, and everyone looked at me, including my dad. 

"Son of a bitch, Hazel?" My dad's eyes widened, and my uncle looked in my direction too. I started running, almost tipping my dad when I hugged him. He immediately hugged me back, stroking my hair.

"Dad...." A sob escaped my throat, and my chuckled.

"C'mon, baby girl, don't get all soft on me." I know he was not serious, he always said this to me when I was crying. He hugged me tighter, kissing my head, then I pulled back a little, and looked at my uncle.

"Daryl."

"C'mere." I let go of my dad, just to be hugged by Daryl. He hated hugging, but he never hated to hug me. "Jesus, we looked for ya everywhere, Haze!"

"I looked for you guys too." Daryl let go of me, then dad took my hands, eyeing the blood on them. 

"It's yer blood?" I shake my head. 

"Nah, I skinned a rabbit earlier." At that, my dad started grinning, ruffling my hair.  

"That's ma' girl."

"I missed ya and Daryl." I hugged him again, burying my face into his chest. I felt like a little girl, but I don't felt this safe in weeks, like right now with my dad.

"I missed ya too, Haze."

"You are a Dixon? No way." I glanced at Glenn, but I didn't pull away completely from my dad. The others were dumbfounded, and my pa was the first who spoke in a rather irritated tone. 

"She's ma' girl, Chinaman, ya have a problem with that?"

"No!" I started laughing. My dad can be rather intimidating, but also my uncle, or me if I have to be, or when I lost my shit. Maybe it's in the Dixon bloodline.   

"You not exactly a father type, Dixon." Andrea said, and I glared at her. That woman was annoying, so classy... pff. At least her sister Amy was more likable. I liked her, on my first day here she said she loved mermaids and stuff like that. I told her I love things like that too, especially dragons. My dad always mocked me about it, but he always brought dragon figures to me, or things like that when he found something. Even if we were low on money. 

"None of yer business, sugartits." I snorted hearing the nickname what my dad picked for Andrea. He turned back to me, still grinning seeing I was amused rather than upset. 

"C'mon, lil sister, ya can help us with the deers, and tell us what happened with ya."

"Yeah, we were looking for ya at the school, and our hunting spots, but you were nowhere."

"We started coming back from that stupid school trip earlier, but some kid was infected. It was a mess, but my knife was with me, so I managed to go back home, but nobody was there. The truck was gone, and yer bike too. That was how I knew you and Daryl were alive. I took some clothes, my gun, some ammo, and go further from the city. I saw the bombing, so I kept low, staying in the forest. A couple of days ago my old camping spot was overrun by a herd and I thought maybe the quarry was still oke, good place to stay a little. Guess I was not the only one." 

" 'm sorry, baby girl." Dad said, and Daryl put a hand on my shoulder, smirking. 

"Yer dad was a mess, almost crashed his bike trying to get to the school faster to find you." 

"Yeah? Who's getting soft now, dad?" I said while grinning, and he just scoffed. 

"Shut up ya two. I ain't gettin' soft."

"Of course not, I love ya to." He rolled his eyes, then he lift up one of the deer, and went toward their tent. Daryl and I followed him, and we started working on the deers they brought. We discussed what happened to us in the past few weeks. It was nice. A couple of hours later I started to take down my tent, I wanted the move it closer to my dad and uncle's tent. 

"Why are you taking down your tent?" I glanced at Lori.

"I'm moving it closer to my dad's tent."

"Everyone was shocked that Merle is your dad. You never said you are a Dixon too, and we said rude things about them..." I just shake my head.

"It's oke, Lori. I know how my dad can be sometimes. But he's not a bad father, so stop worrying. He's not Ed. My grandfather was a drunk bastard, beat his wife and sons." We all know that Carol's husband, Ed beat his wife, and I know it was easy to assume the same about my dad. I looked away. "My dad can be an asshole, but he never put a hand on a woman."

"I didn't know." Lori don't said anything else, and my dad showed up, and take my tent from me.

"I have this. Go and get your other stuff."

"Thanks. Hey, I didn't find my crossbow at home, ya take it with you?" 

"Yeah, I thought ya want it, so we brought it." He said with an amused grin, and a happy squeak left my mouth. I kissed his cheek.

"Thanks dad!" I saw the corner of my eyes Lori smiling, and went on her own business, leaving us alone. Dad helped to put up my tent again next to theirs, but I grabbed his wrist. "Hey, dad? Can I sleep with ya and Daryl tonight?"

"Yeah. I ain't going nowhere, baby girl."

"I know." And just like before when we were camping, dad started telling stories, and Daryl always corrected him, because dad liked to exaggerate. When he started to snore, we looked at each other at Daryl, and burst out laughing, trying to muffle our voices, but then his face went serious. 

"We missed ya, Haze. You make him a better man, a better brother."

"He's not a bad man, neither are you. We are a family, Dare, we need to stuck together, and keep an eye on each other." I glanced at my dad, and grinned." Well, maybe he needs a little more supervising than us."

"Oh, I wanna watch when ya say that to his face."

"Ya wish. Good nigh', Dare."

"Night', Haze."